Bitch

I once had a guy tell me when he heard the song Bitch by Merideth Brooks, it made him think of me. In my early 20's I was deeply offended by the implication that I was a bitch. After all, how could I be a bitch? I try so hard to have people like me, and this man who claimed to love me, thought I was a BITCH (even if only some of this time).

Now in my early 30's I embrace the bitch in me. Well, actually, I've learned that there are many piece and parts of me that make up the whole of me, and yes, sometimes I am a bitch.

I hate the world today
You're so good to me, I know, but I can't change
Tried to tell you, but you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath… Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried, must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way